Ravenously Diseased

It’s by chance that a moment is created
And a chance taken to let go
And indulge is a moment fulfilled
There is an uncertainty that travels through my veins
Stops at my heart every once and a while
To remind me
I’m still alive
To remind me
It still beats

I have lost apart of myself
Some where along this road
Forgetting my value or what I have to offer
For what it’s worth

I am found by grace
Humble in the darkness
Your light has infected me
I’ve put my mirror down… letting it soak in.

I shed a color of black and blue
Desolated, my soul cries out
This could be more

These circling winds
Carrying those whispers far
Remind me to stay
But anguish has found me in all the places I hide myself.

I am frightened, at the very least
Speechless on how I am standing here
Following a God I can’t keep a hold of
But denying myself daily for a chance to be seen in his light

If I dive in
How deep has this been made
Take a hold, for this is not of me
Not created by my heart
But something alive and embraced

I welcome you dear
Just as frightened
Reflecting the same colors
Of this ravenous diseased world

I welcome you, my dear
Just as Plato welcomes us
This river is constantly a flow
New waters constantly flowing through
Fresh and untainted

Welcome dear
Breathe againFor you are alive.